"The world has moved, be quick enough to not miss it now,
so wake up your eyes and darling your smile" -Copeland

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

i just had to share

one of the greatest songs and lyrics.

buenos noches

Monday, June 29, 2009

blue skies mostly

right now i'm at work and at this moment this is what i would like more than anything: to be sitting on the edge of the pool i go to in morristown with a nice cold diet coke with lots of ice and to be reading my awesome book, The Time Traveler's Wife.  soak up some sun for me while i have to be indoors for much of the day :)
and if you can't tell from this post...
i miss home and my family...
buenos tardes :)

Sunday, June 28, 2009

laughter is the best medicine


one of the things i love most is hearing the sound of laughter.  not the quiet chuckle, but the loud, boisterous laughter that goes along with feeling free.  when i hear this from the people i love, my heart rejoices.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

you always remain

i stand corrected from one of my previous posts- "favorites".
i do have a favorite band, and i'm not ashamed to say they are my favorite above all because they are just that good.
Radiohead.
they have influenced me so much, and they have been with me through the past 7 years.  going through many changes, they always have stood beside me with a song i could connect with in any stage so far.  
++++++
"you always remain" by: me :)

traveling through the mazes of time, i 
appear as you
fade into the background.
searching amongst the clouds for
fear the sun will
prove a different story.
i make my own
path and leave the
antiques that were precious to
us behind with the
memories i 
bury under my bed.
here today, gone
tomorrow.
i rack my brain and attempt to
fill my shelves with new items, but
you always remain.
mute, maybe. stone still, perhaps.
i doubt there's any turning back at this point,
we will always be facing the coming years with questions.
is it possible to hold steady while
the world crumbles around us?  
my mind is a blank sheet
just waiting for the answers.
i search behind the clouds again and will
myself to gaze into the sun promising to 
be with you in the 
past, present and future, even if 
i'm standing alone.

Monday, June 22, 2009

"are you still growing?"

while at work today, we were all outside and i was sitting on one of the picnic tables along with a couple little girls, about the age of seven.  one of them kept asking me questions, and i patiently answered them.  well, she knows i'm older and one of the instructors, but she looked at me and in all seriousness asked me
"are you still growing?"
normally i think this would offend me, but i busted out laughing.  since day 1 at that job, the little kids have commented on my size.  i'm barely 5'1" and petite.  many of them make me feel like a shrimp, being taller than me.  i just thought it was so funny and adorable.  
i went to the new food lion grocery store today, and i have to admit i got a bit excited when i went inside.  it's so nice.  does that make me weird that that got me excited?  hmm...little things often do for me anyway.
please continue to keep the lemings and sextons in your prayers.  i believe i forgot to mention that my friend's brother and my friend's mom's (the one that passed away) son was on American Idol season 7-Josiah Leming
do any of you recognize him?  that is my friend andy's brother.  crazy, huh?  anyhow, just keep them in your thoughts please.  i think one of the worst things is seeing people you care about go through something difficult, especially in this case.  it really breaks my heart.
i've been reading The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger and it is soo good.  i highly recommend it.
well, i guess i'll say my goodbyes for now.
buenos noches

Saturday, June 20, 2009

there are many things that i'd like to say to you, but i don't know how

favorites

it's so hard for me to pick out a favorite for anything because to me, "favorite" not only means best, but it means final answer.  i have many favoriteS, but i don't like secluding the others and saying one thing is my favorite or the best.  see what i mean?  for example, i have favorite books, favorite songs, favorite places, etc.  i guess you could call me indecisive when it comes down to it.  
anyway,  
i wanted to name a few of my favorites for y'all:
favorite books: The Catcher in the Rye and To Kill a Mockingbird
favorite songs: True Love Waits by Radiohead and Shiver by Coldplay and i have too many to name on this one topic...
favorite bands: Radiohead, Coldplay, Ryan Adams, Smashing Pumpkins, The Verve and again too many, i can't pick just one, this is so hard
favorite sunglasses: aviators 
favorite times of day: afternoon and after the sun goes down before darkness overtakes night
favorite places: the back porch at my parent's house, the public library, the beach, the mountains
favorite thing to say to people i care about: i love you
what are some of your favorites?  can you name just one?
buenos tardes

Friday, June 19, 2009

i love you mama!

today has been very emotional.  my friend's mom's funeral was tonight.  it was nice, but very sad;  i just hate seeing people i care about suffer, especially like this, and it's difficult to see him and his family go through what they have to deal with.  however, it's a blessing to know that she is at peace now.  we will miss you mrs. sharon leming.  
on the subject of mothers, my mom's birthday is today.  happy birthday mama, i love you so much!  you are one of my heroes, you're beautiful, loyal, caring, loving, patient.  you've shown me what it means to be strong, and i hope i can be half the person you are. 
buenos noches my dears :)

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

on my heart

ever since i listened to "stay" by little big town, thanks to nicole, :) i haven't been able to get enough of them.  another song i especially love by them is "Bring It On Home"
you can listen to it here
and the lyrics are awesome, it seems like it's meant for a lover, but to me, i think it can be for friends too.  makes me grateful for the people in my life that i can depend on and that i can "bring it on home" to
p.s. please continue to keep the lemings and sextons in your thoughts and prayers

You got someone here wants to make it alright
Someone who loves you more than life right here
You got willing arms that'll hold you tight
A hand to lead you on through the night right here
I know your heart can get all tangled up inside
But don't you keep it to yourself

[Chorus:]
When your long day is over
And you can barely drag your feet
The weight of the world is on your shoulders
I know what you need
Bring it on home to me

You know I know you like the back of my hand
But did you know I'm gonna do all that I can right here
I'm gonna lie with you till you fall asleep
When the morning comes I'm still gonna be right here (yes I am)
So take your worries and just drop them at the door
Baby leave it all behind

[Chorus]

Baby let me be your safe harbor
Don't let the water come and carry you away

[Chorus]

You got someone here wants to make it alright
Someone who loves you more than life right here 



hm

i'm sorry i've been so absent from the blog world lately.  i got some pretty upsetting news tonight.  one of my dearest friend's mother passed away this afternoon.  she'd had a long battle with cancer, so please keep her in your thoughts and prayers.  you can find her blog here:
for now, i'm pretty speechless.  i just keep thinking about how his mom and my dad are in heaven now.  
i love you Lemings and Sextons.
buenos noches

Saturday, June 13, 2009

way too excited

OHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSH
I'MSOOOOOOEXCITEDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can you tell?
guess where i'm going tomorrow?  i'll give ya a guess, it's in Nashville and it has to do with music...yup, the CMA Music Festival!!!  i can't wait.  i'm going with my friend liz and her parents, she's the friend i went to the beach with over spring break.  she told me they got 4 tickets for free, isn't that awesome?  there was a big gap in my life where i didn't listen to country music, but when i was younger i did all the time and just this year, i've really gotten into it more.  i mean come on, i have to like it.  i have lived in mississippi, alabama and tennessee!  a few of the country music stars i'll see tomorrow are miranda lambert, montgomery gentry, taylor swift, kenny chesney plus more.  i'm sure i'll have lots of stories to tell between now and then :)  have a great day and i love you all woohoo!!!!! :)

Thursday, June 11, 2009

lalala

i've had a good week so far.
been with friends pretty much every night
kids fill up my afternoons, and i'm really enjoying it for the most part.  i always look forward to seeing them and having them talk to me.  there's always a new story to tell :)  some of the little girls are so sweet.  they run up to me and give me hugs when they see me.  they'll say  things like "i want miss ivy to sit by me.."  i am looking forward to the weekend though.  it's been a long week.
buenos noches  

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

i guess i'm part country too



yesterday was a whirl-wind of a day.  i have to sit back and sigh at everything that happened.  not only did it involve work, but it included the emergency room as well.  let me start at the beginning.  when i got to work, i was escorted to where the 1st grade girls were playing outside and told i would be with them unless otherwise noticed.  for about the first hour while being with them, my hand was held, i was smiled back at, told i was pretty, told i had pretty hair, hugged and so on.  what girl doesn't like that?  i was eating it up, i have to admit.  
unfortunately, the rest of my day wasn't spent with them.  but that's okay.  i was moved to a room with 4th-6th grade girls.  they were nice, just different, and if you have been around this age group, you know what i'm talking about.  nevertheless, my first day was great.  the atmosphere is very laid back.  they spend a high majority of the day outside, and while inside, their day consists of games, computers, listening to music and eating lunch.  at the end of the day, it seemed as if the 8 hours i was there went by much faster than what i had assumed it would.  
i left my cell phone in my car, and when i checked it after i got off work, i had several missed calls and a voicemail from my roommate and best friend, abby.  i checked the message, and after hearing it, i immediately called her back, then i tried calling her mom, finally i got ahold of her boyfriend.  in her message, she informed me that she had just left the infirmary (our college's dr.'s office) and was on her way to the emergency room.  she had tested positive for mono.  i had spoken with her the previous day, and she told me she hadn't felt well all weekend, but no one assumed it would be that.  after i talked to her boyfriend, i rushed to the e.r. where a couple of her friends were already gathered.  her mom was on her way (it's a 2.5 hour drive from morristown to cookeville).  we took turns going in to see her, and i drove her back here to our apartment where her mom met us when she arrived.  
at the present moment, i am sitting alone in my apartment.  abby just left about an hour ago with her mom for home to get rest.  the doctors said really there's nothing you can do when you have mono, all you can do is rest and take tylenol.  no activity or sunlight is encouraged.  i hope she feels better.  i'm a little sad for having to live alone for awhile, but things happen and life hardly ever results the way you had things planned, so i'm not too worried about it.  i just hope she gets to feeling well soon.  :)
i go to work at 3, so i have a little while before i have to leave.  there's no telling what kind of adventures this day will hold.  one funny thing i have to share: i was sitting with a few of the 1st grade girls outside yesterday, and they were talking about where they came from, etc.  many of them said "i'm part irish," part ....", etc well, one of the girls turned to me and said as clear as day, "i'm part irish and part country."  hahahahaha i had to turn my face and hold my laughter in.  that is something i will never forget.  i guess i'm kinda part country too now that i think about it. haha wow i just can't get over that.  kids say the darnest things, haha
hope everyone has a great day
buenos dias mis amigos

Monday, June 8, 2009

kids


new job:
i probably couldn't have asked for a better first day, and i have a feeling that it's just going to get better.  yayyyy :)  i have a few stories to share about the experience.  more details later i promise, i am quite exhausted.

buenos noches mis amigos :)


Saturday, June 6, 2009

love always remains

okay it's confession time:
i've been thinking about love...a lot lately.
i fear it yet i long for it, as most everything goes for me.  it's interesting to me how we as humans put ourselves out on a limb for it.  sometimes, we reach so far that we fall, but we just settle back in and reach for the same thing.  other times, we reach and get a grasp, never having to let go.  whatever the circumstance, we crave this mysterious thing that brings us together, and makes this world go round.  i'm pretty satisfied with who i am and where i am right now, but i look forward to one day telling someone that i love him :)


Friday, June 5, 2009

tryingtocontainmyself

at this very moment that i'm writing this i can barely contain my excitement because...
I
GOT
THE
JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so so so so so excited, i'm so happy!
i'm not even gonna lie,
as soon as i walked in my door again, i did a little scream of joy hehe
i'm gonna be working with children pre-k up to 6th grade (they haven't assigned me what group yet) but now that i think about it...6th grade? hm..some of them may be taller than me hehehe
it's an after school program that continues in the summer.  the lady that hired me even said that i could probably work out a schedule to work in the fall during the school year.  so, i think they liked me :)  after that, i had to go get my finger printed for a background check.  now i'm just waiting on monday to get here.  i start at ten on that day.  
you see, i'm very excited to have this opportunity because as some of you may have guessed, it's hard for me to get just any job because of my limitations and paralysis in my right arm.  i told them i have worked with kids since i was about twelve such as working in vacation bible school, babysitting and i informed them a bit about the possibility of me starting to volunteer for the Mustard Seed Ranch.  i assumed i'd have to explain what that was, but they immediately recognized the name and knew the owners, etc.  it's kinda crazy how it has all worked out so fastly, and it's somewhat connected.
anyway, enough of that.
i was listening to Lydia on the way to the interview.  it's beautiful music, very mellow, indie-ish but after that interview, it was NOT time to be mellow.  i quickly took that out, and inserted Radiohead-the bends  
song of the day so far is "the bends"
enjoy and buenos tardes :)

Thursday, June 4, 2009

please read the letter that I wrote

have you ever felt like nothing ever happens the way you plan them out to happen?  i try not to get too frazzled when this happens, but it's far too easy to do.
anyway
thank you all for the continuous positive feedback, it really makes my day.
i think i ate too many garden salsa sun chips tonight :/
i hope it doesn't result too badly...
abby and i visited The Mustard Seed Ranch tonight rather than next thursday and it was so cool...
there were 5 kids we babysat, all but two had been neglected or abused in some way; it's really sad.  however, this special place gives them an opportunity to try and live a different life than what they previously had with loving live in parents.  it's such a cool thing, and i look forward to learning more about it.  the kids are so loving, one of the little girls (she's four) colored me a picture tonight and she wanted me to write on it "best buddies."  it just made my day, it was so precious. 
i've been listening to Raising Sand by Robert Plant and Alison Krauss.  it's so heartbreakingly beautiful.  i love it when i can connect with a song and there are a few songs on that album that do so for me.
all the other songs are just as awesome, but these have really stuck out to me tonight. 
i just want to say again that
i'm so glad i have this blog.  it has created for me very nice, positive people (not that i don't have that already, but ya know), positive feedback,  it's somewhat of an escape (it's like a whole other world and that's really cool to me), and it encourages me to keep writing, so thank you all for everything :)
buenos noches mis amigos


Wednesday, June 3, 2009

i woke up and it was summer

another great, sunny day! :)
abby and i laid out in the sun for a couple hours today
at 3:40 we sped off to sonic 
this morning, one of the ladies in charge of hiring at my *possible* new job called and i have an interview friday 
at 9 am 
yay :)
hmm....
being in cookeville for the summer is such a different environment for me than what my usual summers consist of.  usually it's being in morristown surrounded by family.  it's not better or worse, just...strange and different, yet still exciting.  know what i mean?
it's something to get used to.
something really cool i might start helping out with in cookeville is this:
last night abby (my roommate) and i went to visit a couple friends and they told us about this place.  they have been helping out with it for about 2 months now, and i found it to be a really cool thing and a good opportunity.  we're going to check it out next thursday to see if we would be more interested in helping out with it.
with all the strange and different things i have mentioned and even more unmentioned, 
i have a feeling this summer might be something to get used to,
not necessarily a bad thing :)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

stress level=trying to keep it at bay...


every single day, i like to put on music that fits my mood.
is that just me or does everyone do that?
what i've been listening to today:
coldplay-"in my place" 
i love the last part when it seems like he is begging to be heard "please please please..."
it's a beautiful song.
i have a new obsession: cherry vanilla dr. pepper from sonic at happy hour, now isn't that just fabulous to add to my addiction with diet coke?  i think not, but...it could be worse :)
today has been business, business, business. bleh, no fun at all:
my air conditioning decided to stop working again on one of the hottest days of the summer, finally got that fixed today
had to go to the board of education office to get a background check for my job next week
turns out, i have to have another interview before i can get the job-
something i had no idea about!  
thus, i technically don't have the job YET, but
 please please please 
keep me in your thoughts and prayers, i really need this.  
after i left that office today, i felt a load of stress and anxiety blanket itself on my shoulders, all nice and snug, only the feeling is very uncomfortable.
i headed in the direction of wal-mart for dish detergent (another non-fun adult activity to add to my list today) and as i got out of the car, i berated myself.
i REFUSE to stress. everything that happens is ultimately out of my hands.
i CANNOT foresee the future, all i can do is hope and pray.
my life is GOOD, and everything will fall into place as it should, even if i don't get that job or if things don't turn out the way i expect them to.
i have little control, therefore the best i can do is live my life and try to be the best person i can be. 
buenos tardes mis amigos! i love you all :)